In A Moment
Where do the words go when staring into darkness?
A blank stare filled with emotion and intention however never acted on manifests nothing.
There is a requirement to act.
I sit on words daily pretending they don’t exist
words of magnificence,
words of meaning.
They stay damned up overflowing the banks of my own subconscious waiting for me to decide their fate. Some gasp a sigh of relief as their fate of life has been chosen, while others perish in my mind, only to move onto the next soul that is more receptive to their presence.
A moment of choice within action that leads us to do or do not do the thing that we know is truth.
The wishing and the waiting becomes a self induced trap that becomes habit of indecision that reaks havoc on our own self confidence.
Continuous moments piled on top of each other requiring us to choose love, or to choose fear.
Be not the person who forgets that they are love all encompassing.
Be not afraid of decisions and choices that are placed in front of you.
Be your truth.
Be your vision.
Be your own decided definition of what being you means to you.
Not Today
Such a strange thing… to want to do the thing you know you cannot do. To be there for others, to create space for their healing and their pain. All you want to do is ask them how they are doing and how they are feeling. You want so dearly to know the best and worst things about their day.
Except you can’t…
…not today.
Today is not the day where you can show up in this capacity. Today is not the day for you to be there for others, to create space for their pain and suffering. To hold them in your heart and wish their tears away.
Nope, not today.
You can see the awareness in the rising anger and frusteration in your own being. You wonder why you feel this way when all you do is love people. Then one day you gaze into your eyes in the mirror and you can see how tired you are. You haven’t taken the time to wrap your arms around your own heart and hold it so close that you feel the pieces all coming back together. Your own love becomes the sutures for your own broken heart.
This broken heart comes from the unacknowledged truth that resides from within. The energy that keeps us alive and breathing. When we do not take the time to recognize our own beingness and the tenderness of our thoughts, we become numb to the things that need to be felt, because we are too busy feeling everything from everyone else.
Flow
All of this enlightenment brings out all of me. The peace surrounds me as the words that I have to speak surround my fingers with the flow of the universe. This sense of purpose puts a fire in my heart that I cannot explain. The trickle down effect of the love of the universe enters my body and leaves when a path opens up in it’s own divine timing. I don’t know what to say really… I mean it is all here encapsulated in the energetic space of our own godliness and loveliness. We are whole and we are one with our hearts and our mind becoming this beautiful and loving entity which can surround our world if that is what we choose to do. The separation of who we are is only a learned separation. We are all meant to work in community and in union. Together is the only way we can create a universe destined for a world in a peaceful existence.
Moments come and go just as they are meant to. A swirling passage of time which allow for many outcomes of possibility, within many aspects of response, the ability to create our tomorrows. It is in our awareness of each of these moments where we have the cognition to objectively step back to understand what my higher purpose is in all of this.
Intuitively we know, the question is when do we stop our resistance to divine flow?
An Unjudged Life
There is a thing that I see when our gaze connects, a soulful expression of pure love for the self. As we shift into a consciousness of LOVE, we open up all that of which is unhealed within us and take it one moment of hurt and sadness after another. This time we are able to see it objectively from a third perspective… a more loving approach. You see we were never meant to look at ourselves in the mirror and judge it all, it was always meant to be admired and loved. Your spirit was meant to be nurtured and withstanding of all forces that may attempt to sway you from your truth. You are never meant to walk through your day feeling inadequate or unappreciated. It is the “lack of” mentality that is engrained into our belief system that we are never enough. We are marketed to, and sold things that will give us the beauty and the health that we so desire… and ONLY THEN it is taught, that we will be free from our own self hatred.
I am here to offer a perspective if you so choose to hear me. That every validation of who we are and what our purpose is here on this earth must come from within. If it seems to always come from an external source, and said source is removed from our life, then what happens to us? Do we just occupy a space of inadequacy until something, or someone else comes along to tell us how beautiful we are? We deserve so much more than that. We all deserve the blissfull love that we all have access to… the problem is that we have created blockages and barriers to prevent us from feeling this deep emotion of the universal power. I welcome you to look at oneself in the mirror unjudged. To let your jaw drop in all of God’s beauty and wonder as he created you so perfectly, and brilliantly. Allow the feeling of all that is good rush in and fill the veins of your being, as it is transported towards the heart and then explodes with all the masterful powers of unlimited creation.
You… my dear sweet soul. are everything you need. You are perfect and you are whole.
I… my dear sweet soul, am everything I need. I am perfect, and I am whole.
A Logical Expression
Most days I take some time to sit in a space of silence. I need it for my soul to look at the day in a different perspective possibly… a consuming thing isn’t it? to take energy and
analyze…
analyze…
analyze…
analyze…
When does it become too much? When do we stop the constant analysis of every thought, every situation? Every human interaction?
How often do we paralyze ourselves in this shadow of judgement we place on everything? I must admit that for me it is quite often, a demise of my character no doubt. A ruse created by the EGO to come out and play wth the external environment. To attempt to prove its powerful facade it has created within my impressionable mind. Ego is so insecure don’t you think? Why do we believe that to be a part of who we are? When did we choose to accept a lesser and unworthy version of our true self?
Ahhh yes I knew you would understand, I am with you on that one.
We must become aware to first begin understanding all the moving parts to our consciousness and purpose. So many walk through life with lifeless intention, and that is their choice and there is no good, bad, right, or wrong. Everything unfolds just as it is supposed to. Our interconnectivity on the soul level presents itself in moments of objective awareness to where communication is happening through a link which we cannot see. This is connection, this is truth, this is presence.
It is all one.
We are all one.
It is all a perfect as it is meant to be.
Unedited Expression
Oh how powerful I feel today,
as the winds of the heavenly universe have come to sweep me away.
I pray that I will never forget this feeling,
except I know that soon I will.
To enter this seemingly miraculous headspace that i’m in, requires nothing but stillness.
It is quite clear to me as to why its so hard most of the time,
I sit here in a frenzied silence feeling like I am going to explode with inner turmoil.
I try to keep my mind still to allow words to come, but it shouts too loud with all of my excuses.
I cannot hear the inspiration that flows so close to me as it waits for me to sit down and stop for a minute.
The daily stresses of the rat race that envelopes me for 12 hours a day leaves very little time for writing.. but it does leave time.
Every day I choose not to do what I was meant to do. How can I be mad for any of the choices that i’ve made? How can I hate myself for doing the best I possibly can with the awareness that I have been given in that present moment? Oh but I can, and I will, because thats how I was taught you see. To be perfect and to be right. to be free of failure, and to be full of regret.
I have no plans to be a perfect person defined within the constraints of human acceptance. I have plans to expand awareness with words and questions, to excite the mind with unconvential thinking. Oh how I live to see planet of awakened beings stepping up to create a loving and beautiful existence. To thrive in a peaceful co habitation with others areound us.
For me, that is truly a worthy goal.
